More quiting…
Ok….I know I said I was going to avoid those smoking related acivities to reduce the chance that I might be tempted to start smoking again. Well I realized that's impossible. On top of it being impossible it just not a good way to go. I wouldn't be solving the problem, which of course is to break a habit. So I've decided to face my normal smoker life with out cigarettes. So far so good…i've survived hanging out with friends who smoke constantly, drinking on Saturday, and each and every meal since last Tuesday. I know it probably doesn't sound like much, but I seem to crave cigarettes the most when i'm drinking alcohol, or after a good meal, and while i'm just sitting around bull shitting with friends. The fact that I have skated right through all three activities several times during my initial week is a good sign. That's not to say I didn't crave one. There were times when the crave was strong. But, I managed to keep my cool, and resist the urge. This has to be the easiest of my many attempts to quit smoking. While I have quit previously for almost an entire month, this time feel different. Maybe i'm just ready to quit now, maybe my reasons for quiting have finally started to out weight the reason for smoking? Who knows?! Oddly enough the first few days where much easier than the last couple of days have been. I'm not sure if it was all of the cigarette smoke I was exposed to on Saturday or not though. But I have felt my will bending a bit. It feels something like me saying to myself "Wow…i'm so proud of you….your doing so well…you deserve a reward! You know? A 'Reeeewaaard'? Wink, wink, nudge, nudge…know whadda mean, know whadda mean?" I i'm all like "Nuff said….nuff saaaid!" back to me…
