Quiting again…
So after some thought, and looking back to how well I did a couple of months ago when I quit smoking I was thinking that it was rather nice period of time and couldn't really figure out where I went wrong or when i started smoking a pack a day again. In any case i'm geared up for the first three days again. I've done this before, and it's not really difficult or painful or anything, the craving are more of an annoyance than anything. It's after three days when your body has metabolized the remaining nicotene that the cravings become strong. After about 10 days the tough part is over and your biggest challenge is avoiding those spot where you smoke habitually. I've discovered a great site with tons of information called WhyQuit.com . Education can be your best weapon in the battle to quit smoking. I was a little wishy-washy about quiting before and used language that allowed me to regress with out feeling too guilty. Not this time! I've quit forever! (After all thats the only way you can quit…)
To the right your will see what at first seems like an incredibly brutal picture. Well it is brutal, but don't look away. Let it slap you in the face like a snow shovel sized hand of reality. Focus on it until you think you understand what this family is going through at this moment. Look closely at Bonnie Curtis's anguish and and the vacant stare of a child who will never truely know his father. Now look at Bryan Lee Curtis and try for a second to imagine a physical pain that no amount of pain killers or nerve blocks will help. Then imagine knowing that this pain will be with you until the end. I can't imagine that knowing the end is close could make you feel any better. Once you start to cry you have just begun to feel a small sample (in a much lighter dose) of what it might be like.
Right about now or maybe in the first paragraph your probably wondering "What sick bastard put poor Bryan's photos online for the world to see!?" The answer…Bryan did, or at least had it done on his behalf and at his request. Even though he continued to smoke up until he was simply too incapacitated to do so, he spent the last few weeks of his life trying to get his story out in the hopes that at least one kid might be scared straight by his ghostly visage. Sadly he died two day before he was scheduled to go on TV.
